( picture taken from blog orang but don't know how to link ke page orang itu...maaf)
I can just said this..
nak HIGHLIGHT point nombor
2 & 3 tu je
Point nombor 2 & 3 tu amat penting bagi aku..
Inilah yang aku rasa sekarang ini bila orang tak memerlukan aku..
Bila people won't trust me anymore..
Tonight i have made some cry again..
i'm sorry...but i just made someone cry again...
Hope there will be other person that will make you happy..
Hope you will happy with your life...
we are not suite with each other..
we can't be like what we used to be in the past
If you keep on doing this to me and i keep hurting your heart...
I know sorry won't be a suitable word to use to fix the situation
But i'm sorry... I won't bother you again... forgive me...
But this is our faith that have been set for both of us...
we just can be like what we used to be after what have happen
Between you &me
You really hurt my heart..
I know both of us were hurt..
if we keep on this relation...
Kita tidak akan mampu menghadapi dugaan yang akan datang...
Let we just face the fact that we can't be like before
even though we try our best to fix & ignore the problem
i try my best to make you happy, to make you enjoy with me
but it seem like it just won't work
you just like living in your own world, you create your own fantasy with someone that
cherish, make you happy, smiling all the time
you ignore me...you did't do the same to me
did't do the same thing like i do to you..
You did't make me happy even for a second..
i need to find my own happiness..
when i playing facebook you said that i did't have time for you
you said i'm too busy to entertain you...
But what about you?? all the time with your handphone...
keep playing message, calling without noticing me
you ignore me...
when i talking to you... you did't response to any of my question and talk
you just occupied playing your phone even you did't notice that
you have lose me...
when you realize that you have lose me..
you said i have change..all this while you wanted me to change
but after i change you said that i'm did't care for you anymore
you said i already bored with you...
I sad when every time you said like that
you said i did't appreciate you...
all this while i always appreciate you but you did't see all those thing
i do everything to grab your heart...
I did't miss a single of your birthday since i know you..
i make a wish, i buy you a card, give...
take you to go out having fun... we go out to eat to celebrate it..
did you remember your first celebration birthday with me??
we sit at the taman while lepak-lepak sambil
i tggu kul 12 just to wish your birthday..
a few days before your birthday you keep on reminding me...other also did the same
but as everyone know i such an pelupa one
so no one aspect it from me right...
so that night i ask you go lepak with me..at taman basketball
you turun dari block you right after i finish playing basketball
so we lepak until kul 12.. i intended to wish for you birthday but i just can't said it
i brought down a plastic beg contain your birthday card...
inside it got a keropi keychain & a bookmark
because i know you love green, keropi and reading so i buy you that...
But i did't give it exactly 12 o'clock
i leave it in your locker...because i want to it as a surprise..
you were shock when you open up your locker find my present inside it right...
you say thank you to me on the way we were going to Alor Star
(punya lah susah nak sorokkan hadiah tu sebab you sentiasa ada dengan i..nasib baik you nak g mandi baru lah i bleh letak bende tu..)
on your birthday we go to Alor Star
to celebrate it only the two of us...
we go to karoke and playing game and eating..
we have fun a lot of video we take...
i just hope in your birthday you won't be alone...
on your second birthday celebration with me
i already made a plan without you notice it
my plan was
- Going to kangar...
- take a taxi go to secret recipe to buy a cake for you
- ride back the taxi go back to the central kangar
- then go to the gift shop and buy you a birthday card..
- then go back to Simpang 4 before you notice i have go out...
to go to kangar i have to wake up at 7.00 pm to get ready and catch-up the shuttle bus
that will depart on 8.15 a.m so i need to be hurry and
without you notice that i gone...
So i arrive at kangar 9.00 am
i wait at the taxi terminal until 9.55 am
because of the secret recipe will be open at 10 am
so i skip the plan to the No.4 buying you a birthday card..
So i go and buy you a birthday card
but i did't have any pen to write it so i borrow from the worker...hahaha
( quite shy actualy...)
so i look at my watch it is already 9.50 am
so i'm off to the taxi terminal to catch up any taxi
so i reach at the secret recipe at 10 am
but the restaurant did't open yet...
i feel weird why did this shop did't open yet??
so i go to the shop to see if the manager inside the shop..
and YES the manager in the shop so i ask him
when will this shop open...he said 11 am...
quite shock...and then he ask me why...then i said that i wanted to buy cake...
lucky the cake just finish cooking...hahaha
(lega...)
Then the manager give green light for me to buy the cake
i'll buy the indulgent cake for you...
because you can't eat too much of cake and the first cake that i
suggest to you is the indulgent cake and you said it is delicious
so i buy you another one... so after i buy the cake i
straight forward go to central kangar to ride the shuttle bus
i look at the watch it is nearly 11.15 am...
hope that you did't wake up yet..
arrive at home at 11.45 am ( something during the time lah)
i enter the house, i wanted to give a surprise for you
but our housemate shouted my name...
ahaha...quite shock gak lah...
but luckily your did't wake up yet
So i open up your cake and put a candle on top of the cake and wake you up
i brought you to the table you see the cake...and you were happy to see the cake
i'm glad you like the cake but i did't give to you yet the card
i waited for you to finish the cake then i ask you to go inside the room with me
i give you a birthday card plus with a bear a a bracelet
you were happy seeing those thing...
i also create a page for you to see for your birthday...
you were happy and said thank you to me...
that is our moment during your birthday...
My first birthday in Unimap did't so well only one person wish to me happy birthday
the person is not you that person is syahila
i did't care that one to much because during that time i did't know you so well
My second birthday is a day before raya last year...
you did wish my birthday and i did't hope anything from you..
just wish if you can remember my birthday that would be enough...
I try to call you but you were too busy with the preparation for raya..
In my mind i think that it is already enough that you remember my birthday...
but somehow i just hoping that you could spend some of your time talking to me
even though were far from each other...
My third birthday which are this year...
your best friend aunt pass away...and you need to be beside her
so you did't have much time to talking to me...
in that night i going back to perlis
but you still got no time to talk to me...
we just sent message to one and other
you promise to me that when we
got back in perlis that sunday we will go to Alor Star and celebrate my birthday there..
but we did't go to alor star that sunday...
we go in monday...we skip the classes..
the four of us...you promise to brought me to Mc'Donald
my favorite places..and Secret recipe...
But we did't go there..we go to KFC because
the three of you did't want to eat at Mc'Donald..
I just shut up and wait for you to remember you promise
but you did't remember it...
Before going back to perlis i said to you that my saving got 400++
just to treat you..that is the collection that were given by my nenek
for raya treat, and also my elaun during our internship
(actually 800++ but some of the money i use to buy our shirt and topup for both of us...hehehe)
We did go to Alor Star but we did't celebrate my birthday...
we go and having fun together...
And in my mind said that
it is already enough that you remember my birthday and we having fun today...
even though you keep playing with your phone...
i don't mind of it...even though it hurt my heart...(tet!!)
You were angry when i ask present from others and not from you...
i did ask but you were forgetting it
so i just assume that i did't ask anything from you..
i maybe asking from other present but it only for jokes
i won't burden other to buy, find or get it
if they want to give it...they did't have to wait until i ask it...
that all the story of my birthday with you
so far i been study here...
thank you so much because remembering it..
If you said i did't appreciate you...
you did hurt my heart so badly until i just can't breath
